December 13, 2015

Back to Blogging

Well, it has actually been years since I last blogged. Social media took over our lives, as we saw the world awash with Facebook, Twitter , Instagram and alike. I didn't feel that there would ever be a need to go back to blogging. Now I find the fun has gone from Facebook as people use it for a political platform or for bullying people that may or may not read their posts. Whilst we all have the freedom of speech, I used to enjoy it for fun and keeping up with friends from afar.

My blog is where I vent my personal feelings, there is no need to like, comment or even read it. There is plenty more from where this came so if you want to, read it, if not pass it by. Let's fill facebook back up with fun stuff!

Posted by laura at 07:48 PM | Comments (0)

April 20, 2011

Is Blogging Relevant in 2011

I noticed that it is over a year since I updated this blog. Facebook seems to be the way to vent feelings.......with a quick status.....I used to like writing my blog and thought of it as a real insight to my life and maybe a legacy to my children.

I have been missing my dad dreadfully over the last few days and have sat and read through his whole blog page, which made me both laugh and cry.

So maybe it is time to update it......I dont actually want to write about the last year..........but maybe will write about the present in months to come.

Posted by laura at 06:22 PM | Comments (2)

January 04, 2010

Welcome 2010

Usually at this time of the year I reflect over the past year, however my last few blog entries have all been reflections of my life. This entry will be a positive one. I look forward to any new challenge that will come my way and relish shutting the door on any negative aspects that have been lurking!

I intend to spend time with family and friends who make me happy and hopefully I can make them happy too. I look forward to helping to run Summer Camp for Tourette's Action this year and hoping this challenge will give me confidence to do other things.

I miss Daddy every day but have been thinking a lot about the traits I may have inherited. His humour, enjoyment of life and love of people.....not a bad legacy to be left. Dad I am so proud to be your daughter and hope that I am able to make you proud of me always and that I will pass these traits and others on to my children.

So, to all my family and friends, I wish you a happy 2010, Laura is here and happy to be who she is xxx

Posted by laura at 07:56 PM | Comments (2)

December 16, 2009

Feelings, Thoughts and Life!

It's another two months since I have made an entry on this blog. I am still off work and have found it difficult being at home. I feel guilty about not making a substantial financial contribution to the house and feel not needed. It is so very hard going from being a person who is running around like a lunatic to someone with nothing much to do but think and worry.

The Tourette's is much the same and over th last couple of months have had some really down days. However, with some healthy thoughts (and a little help from drugs) am feeling more positive at being at home and coping with the Tourette's. I have found the hardest thing has been for me to introduce myself and explain I have it. I just keep saying "I'm sorry I have Tourette's". My friends tell me I must not apologise but it is something I am not finding easy.

Reading back on the last couple of paragraphs it sounds like doom and gloom. It's not really like that most days that I see friends or family I am able to have a good giggle to set me up.

Exercise also has been an important part of keeping me calmer and I thank Melodie for the morning runs (especially as she HATES every minute of it). However, this week my calf muscle popped as we were out on a run and I am now crutches having physiotherapy. So that has put pay to that for now. Melodie's eyelashes and fingernails will be missing their daily outing! Mel, I love you, you is well nang!

During the last couple of months both Carly and Jaimie have secured their dream jobs; Carly as a secondary school PE teacher and Jaimie as a trainee photographer. Joelle has competed her first term of law and I am very proud of all three of them.

Laurence is always there to fight my fight in many ways and is keen for me to carry on as normal with everything I do.

Of course, 5 months on we all miss daddy very very much. A big gap is missing in our family. I am so very proud of the way mummy has coped. It has not been easy for her but she is a wonderful role model to us all and has bee a rock to me. I love her very much. My brother Neil has been wonderful and is always there for a chat if I need him. Neil, I think we may have grown up and started liking each other! When did that happen?

Writing this blog is quite therapeutic, it makes me look at all the positives in my life. Family, friends and experiences that I really wouldn't want to swap. It has been lovely to spend time with friends and I want all of you to know how much I appreciate you. I find you all a genuine and funny bunch and feel so comfortable around you xxxx

Things planned for next year if possible: a bungee jump, a parachute jump, zorbing and another day at Rope Runners to name a few. Sorry but cinema and theatre are not good options and I found it amusing when my counsellor told me to relax by visiting the library. Ha Ha T.S and a library visit PMSL

Posted by laura at 04:51 PM | Comments (10)

October 05, 2009

Bus, Breakfast, Barkingside and Buddies

I now have been signed off work for four weeks for stress and anxiety. I am trying to overcome fears of going out and am making sure I do. One of the places that gets me out in the morning is a visit to 104, a cafe in Barkingside, where a group of girls meet daily for breakfast, chats and giggles. I am trying at least once a week to get there as the doctor said meeting friends and relaxing is what I need to do. I had decided this particular day to go to Galleons Reach as I really needed to buy some jeans. I felt Galleons Reach a good place to go (despite the disgusting sewage smell there) as I wasn't closed in like I would be if I went to Lakeside. Having told Melodie this in one of our over the fence evening chats, she decided that she would like to come too. However as she does a school run with loads of kids she was unable to fit me in the car.. This then brings the dilemma of having two cars in Barkingside. Feeling that I should set myself a daily task I decided that it would be a good idea if I took the bus to Barkingside and then we could meet at 104 and have only one car.

So at 8.30 am the next morning I set off for Loughton station to get the 167 bus to Barkingside ( by the way have you ever listened to Gladys Knight and Pips singing Midnight Train to Georgia? If you listen carefully in the background they sing "Everythings gonna be in Barkingside!")

Now my dilemma began.....I am on a bus...on my own....I have Tourettes.....and I am going to look like a care in the community patient whilst on this 40minute bus ride! I have two choices......I can tic like a loony....BUS STOP being the favoured tic of that moment and of course every time a bus stop came into view...the tic started!.....Or I could get my ipod out and sing tunelessly along to it, because when I sing I don't tic!........In the end I decided on a bit of both....and kind of kept my face stuck to the window.....looking like a scene from One Flew Over the Cuckoos Nest! Still I arrived safe and sound at 104 ready for my cup of tea or even something a little bit stronger.

The morning became a real tonic as we shared banter and schoolgirl humour, as well as some bodily fluids (best not to ask). Only it is all probably lost in translation so will leave it at that! So Mel, Aly, Jo, Lisa, Sherry and set me up for a very good day and have asked the doctor this morning if I bottled it up could she give me a weekly prescription of it!

So onto Galleons Reach (Do you think it is called that because it really makes you want to reach when you smell it?). I watched Melodie in jumper heaven and how she could save Mark money by buying the jumpers at these crazy marked down prices! I was comfortable enough to wander off and for the first day since I have been off work did not have that want to go home feeling. Apart from dying for a cup of tea which we managed to get at Fiona's house on the way home....So all in all....what might seem like an ordinary day to most of you....felt like a very good day to me.......It seems to be one step forwards and two backwards....but I figure if I get the one forward I am on to a good thing ......onward and upward xxx

Posted by laura at 02:38 PM | Comments (9)