August 30, 2009

Trauma, Sadness and Tourettes

It has been a while since I made any entries to my blog......This is because mainly I have found it hard enough to cope with my emotions without sharing them with all and sundry. However, yesterday, a very good friend said to me " Maybe it's time you started writing your blog again", so here goes:

My Daddy passed away on the 14th July, he could no longer fight the evil disease and was in so much pain.Daddy, you are now out of pain, sleep tight and watch over us.

The pain that I have gone through losing him has been impossible to describe. There is an enormous void in my life as he and I had a shared understanding and humour. Something that will be irreplaceable. Neil, Mum and I have tried to be strong together and carried out his every wish for his funeral which was truly a celebration of his life.

My strength has come from the support of Mum,Laurence,Nick, Vicky and the girls but also the support and love from my very good friends. Support and love that has truly overwhelmed me. Over the last year or so, I have met and made some new friends, these people have been tremendous in the short time I have known them. Friends who I have known for years are constantly checking up and supporting me and friends who I have not seen for years have popped round or made contact. To all of you ..old are fabulous and have made this period of time a little easier to bare......

That brings me on to Tourettes..because without you family and friends again this would have been a tough call. The Tourette's has developed since I last wrote. There are an extensive range of motor and vocal tics.These tics are my constant companions and I have got to know them well ( so have my nearest and dearest) I try to keep my humour, most of the time I do..... I mean if you can't laugh about shouting big brown Ikea box when you are walking behind your dad's coffin....then..who knows what you can laugh at! I can carry on as normal and when doing what I love doing seem to be at my best....most people don't even notice it anymore.

Tourettes has also brought me some difficulties in everyday life, some I find too painful to talk about and some I am unable to on this blog. I again, thank those special people around me who are always there for me to sound off on. I thank you for the phone calls, chats, text, FB and any other messages. I thank you for the company, days out, breakfasts, lunches, walks and runs. I thank you for the giggles and hugs....All of this makes me stronger to fight the fight and ensure that the misunderstood are understood.

Posted by laura at August 30, 2009 10:45 PM

Laura - was so sad tonight after talking to you. Won't go into details here, but you know how much we support you and love you, and you've got to just hang in there and know that, even if you have a fight on your hands for the moment, it will be ok in the end. You haven't done anything wrong ..... You know what I'm talking about.

Will give you a call in a couple of days.


Posted by: Scara at August 30, 2009 11:39 PM

Hi Laura,

Just read your blog, lost my dad around the same time to Alzheimers although he really went after the passing of my mum 6 years ago.

My feelings go out to you.


Posted by: mark stephens at August 31, 2009 08:29 AM

You are a very special person with very special qualities. To go through the pain of losing Daddy and the trauma of the tourettes is something alot of people couldn't cope with. I don't have to tell you how many friends and family are supporting you at this time. I think I know what you are talking about on your blog when you say you can't talk about some things on here.We are all here for you and if there is anything you ever need,anything I do in my every day life that can help you in yours then I am only a call away.What more can I say Laura,we may not see eachother much but as far as I am concerned you will always be family to me. xx

Posted by: Stuart Levine at September 1, 2009 09:18 PM
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